love letter for JJ
hello JJ my love, how are you? did you crossed the rainbow bridge safely? did you get to meet all your friends? i'm sure Luna, Solty, Comot and Yaya are excited to see you. unfortunately, i was not ready to let you go.
you meowed for days behind the water tank at our old house. i already moved to the new house; the old house sale still pending. your mother left you; but you got yourself a new human family.
you're a feisty little boy; blue eyes with white fur and a little bit of brown spots. you grown into a full-fledged handsome cat; with striking blue eyes to match. female strays from around the neighbourhood flirted with you, and you hated that. maybe you're a gay cat? hahahahahaha okay that's funny.
after Comot died, you got really lonely; your sad meows echoed throughout our walls. i have tried everything to lessen your loneliness; perhaps it wasn't enough. getting another cat was out of the question; i was too heartbroken after all your friends died, plus i am not financially able to care for another pet. you cuddled with us a lot, something you refused to do since we adopted you. were you grieving for all your friends? i wish i could take your pain away.
on 24th of july, i was offered a permanent position at the civil society organization that frequently engaged with my service on a contract basis. this is it, i can afford better food and better healthcare for you. no more being broke; no more asking for mutual aid from my friends. but the universe decided otherwise.
out of a sudden, you refused to eat. i had to force fed you; and on the second day i brought you to the vet. i just got paid adult money, and to be honest i don't give a shit on how much i had to spend on you, as long as you get better because you know what? i'm gonna get my adult money same time next month so i have nothing to worry about.
you didn't get better, and my worry turned into panic. despite the medications, your condition deteriorated rapidly. on the fourth day, i rushed you back to the vet. i drove faster than a racecar driver; but i was too late my love, you left me. you left me minutes after i step into the clinic. all the cpr in the world failed to revive you.
what did i do wrong, my love? you were healthy, there is nothing wrong with you. you left me so suddenly. did you died of a broken heart? if that's the case then i hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me. i have failed you; i am sorry and everything was my fault.
you've been by my side for 17 years. i am now entering a new chapter in my life and you're not in it. how am i supposed to live without you? what's the use of this adult money now, if it's not for you? my heart is broken.
i am sorry for everything. all my furkids are gone. maybe in a distant future when i'm on my deathbed, all i am going to wish for is to be with you again.. and with Luna, Solty, Yaya and Comot. but in the meantime i will live, i'll live for you. til we meet again, my love. thank you for the beautiful 17 years you gave me.
i love you, forever and always 💔
JJ (Joned Junior)
2009 - 9th august 2026