love letter for Yaya
hello yaya my handsome boy, how are you doing? did you crossed the rainbow bridge safely? i'm sure you did.
the road i used was closed for le tour de langkawi 2010. i was stuck in a roadblock for a while. the lady in the car next to me told me that there were two cats on top of my car tyre. she took one of the cat home, and both of us couldn't find the other cat; we assumed that it ran away. the other cat was you.
i ran errands around klang valley for the whole day, not knowing you took refuge in my car. later that night when i was home, i heard your meows and there you were; small and frail, hidden in the safe part of the engine of my car.
i searched high and low for that lady, knowing that she wanted to adopt you when she saw you in that roadblock. after months of searching, i gave up. i was tired and i spent so much of my resources looking for her. i guess you were meant for me after all.
you were so affectionate. i don't know how to explain this but you loved. you loved all of us. you loved me unconditionally, you're always there for me. you belong here in my arms, where we kept each other safe in this cruel world.
you had an ear infection during the lockdown which caused your head to permanently tilted to one side. i was unemployed and broke and i spent nearly a thousand ringgit of my retirement fund to cure you but it's worth it my love. as long you're healthy, that's all that matters to me.
you're getting older, and your neurological problems took a turn for the worst. one fine morning, you're gone. you died in your sleep. despite all the meds, you pooping and eating and drinking normally the day before like any other cats, you left me.
what am i suppose to do now my love? you left me in a hurry. how do i live now without you? how do i survive in this cruel world without your love? i have lost my best friend and i don't know what to do.
i thought of you every day. there's not a day go by that i wish that you're here by my side, showering me with cuddles and kisses.
i hope you're happy on the other side. i'm sure you're telling the other cats in heaven how much you loved, and i'm sure they love you too. you're such a charming, handsome boy.
i love you, forever and always.
Yaya
2010 - 11th october 2025