solitary confinement
i remembered what you wrote about me. i was hurt, but i do understand your perspectives and your feelings are valid too. i wondered if i ever said anything wrong. you could've called me out on it but you didn't. perhaps i was not enough of a safe space for you to do that.
i'm sorry. i'm terribly sorry. i don't know what i did wrong but i'm sorry. i'm sorry for not being safe enough for you so that you can just be yourself around me; pouring out all your thoughts and feelings without holding back.
to be loved is to be included.
i was right today, i was not included. maybe it was my fault afterall; for struggling financially.
what was i thinking? i am such a fool.
i have no one but myself now, solitude is the only permanence.
"how happy is the blameless vestal’s lot!
the world forgetting, by the world forgot
eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
each pray’r accepted, and each wish resign’d"
-- alexander pope