things that i will never get to do again
i was busy closing up the outlet a few weeks ago, when one of my colleague's family came over. we were chatting and she asked her mother and her brother to guess my age. their jaws dropped to the floor when they found out how old i really am.
my numbers are catching up faster than my physical looks. my colleague said i don't look a day older than 28 years old.
my youth was stalled, but my memory wasn't. not too long ago, i remembered that i made phone calls with rotary dial phone. if i'm outside, i had to use the public phone and use either coins or the extinct uniphone card. i had a sanyo cassette tape walkman. i had to write down all my school work; at that time computer runs on ms-dos or windows 3.1. if i need to snap pictures, i'll use the kodak semi-automatic camera with film in it. i'll cycle to the photo studio after school and get those film developed.
the local newspaper published screening times of movies in the cinema, and tv shows listings as well. i get to plan in advance what i want to watch that day; because going outside playing rounders (a simplified version of baseball) with friends was important to me.
i was 13 when windows 95 came out. my dad bought a computer and everything changed. i had to shoulder more responsibilities, thus computer games was my only escape. i don't go out as much anymore. and my youth was just that; a series of things that i didn't get to do again.
"we are dead to love and honor
we are lost to hope and truth
we are dropping down the ladder rung by rung
and the measure of our horror is the measure of our youth
god help us for we knew the worst too young!"
-- rudyard kipling