unhappy new year
maybe it's hard to admit it to myself, but i realized i have been unhappy for the past few years.
it felt like i'm in a perpetual state of being sad and depressed, and happiness is something completely out of my reach.
i went up and gasped for air; saw a glimmer of happy sunrays right before my very eyes but it only lasted for a brief seconds before the wave of unhappiness pulled me under and drowned me.
i don't asked for much; just something that's enough for me to live on until the rest of my days and maybe a lot of happiness along the way but capitalism decided that i don't deserved it.
i'm not sure what 2025 will bring me, but i'm sure as hell to bring myself present to the table, my demons included.
"there is nothing in the world so much admired as a man who knows how to bear unhappiness with courage"
-- seneca